blog-leave

Uhm. So yeaaa. I've been really reserved nowadays. Well, back to the nerdy mee. Yay.

I'd probably still blog... but in another site. It'll be really confidential, and only my close friends'll know about it. Yeah. Really.

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I wrote this awhile ago at around 12:30 AM. I couldn't sleep. Insomniac. XD

*I'm using codenames.

Soooo... it's sembreak.

HELP! How can you tell somebody that his actions are disturbing even though they're just jokes? Jeez. I just felt so uneasy.

I feel so hidden. It's as if I'm too conservative! I see myself as the nerdy freakazoid who dreams to be a rich mad scientist, at the same time, be a saint or a patroness of whatever. What dreams!!! You know... when a guy's getting intimate and all... I feel so uncomfortable that I suddenly separate myself from him and avoid contact. That's why, I guess, I haven't had any suitors, MU's or even know a single person who has a crush on me. I tend to separate myself from the "possibilities". I worry a lot. Moreover, I think a lot. I just feel so guilty bit being open to my parents. That's why, I avoid any romantic situations. Maaga pa lang, I try to kill the budding growth. It just sucks though because I don't experience the "kilig factor" that my other female friends experience.

I tend to be soooo secretive. Hell. I just don't trust anybody easily. Not even the ones who are dear to me.

BOTTOMLINE: I MISS TWILIGHT (Ehem, codename...doii)! Though, we don't talk too much in school, I miss him. He's not my ideal man, but there's something in him that make my heart beat so fast! Do I love him? Waaaah... XD

I dreamt about Twi (Twilight)! He was with his friend in this gamezone whatsoever. I was entering that place with a billiard stick and my school bag in hand (yes, my dreams are weird) when I suddenly saw them. I pretended to not notice them and instead said hello to my friend. Then, I rushed to get out. Getting to the railings of the mall (it seemed like Glorietta), they chased me. So, I greeted them. So we talked. It was just a nice dream. *Sigh* Oh, and such a long dream too. Before this, it started as a family reunion, that turned into a ghost-hunting fest, then suddenly became an ala-soap opera Crazy for You where I was the Janice and I got linked with a cute guy and then turned into a de ja vu of the fieldtrip where we got to do absolutely nothing at Tagaytay Highlands until evening fall... which suddenly became a party for my friends aaaand afterwhich, the incident with Twi then my computer session... then waking up with the TV switched on with my brother watching.

I'm quite surprised I remember the details of the dream. What happens to most people is that they only remember a fragment of it.

Here are some quotes I made up for Twi:

Under the palm tree

We sit together

Setting our feelings free

Waiting for forever

***
Isn't it wonderful

How I can make

Simple words beautiful

For your sole sake

***

Living in dreams

Believing falsely

Yet it seems

Just like a medley

Forgive me, I'm not poetic. I'm just amazed how I can suddenly make these in just a short span of time for Twi when I want to write a poem, it takes me an eternity to make a stanza.

Oh! I'm sorry if I acted like a teeny bopper here in this. Hahaha. La lang. ;-p

song

Uhm. So. I don't want cobwebs & dust to show up here in my site. So, Imma update.

Nothing's happening lately. Just, I'm so relieved that we already scheduled a date for the IP--Friday.

OMFG! Yesterday, Halloween, I was sooo vain. I kept on taking picss of myself. Forgive me, I was just bored. Here's my favorite:

I just talked to Cherianne thru the phone. We talked about stuff that's been happening in the school. Actually, we have the same perspectives & views about those. Hey, you'll only experience youth for one time in your life. Enjoy it. Don't rush things! You'll never unravel the hidden beauty of life.

I'm soooo addicted to this song:

Love Will Show You Everything

by: Jennifer Love Hewitt

(If Only OST)

***

Today, today I bet my life

You have no idea

What I feel inside

Don't, be afraid to let it show

For you'll never know

If you let it hide

***

I love you

You love me

Take this gift and don't ask why

Cause if you will let me

I'll take what scares you hold it deep inside

And if you ask me why I'm with you

And why I'll never Leave

Love will show you everything

***

One day

When youth is just a memory

I know you'll be standing right next to me

***

I love you

You love me

Take this gift and don't ask why

Cause if you will let me

I'll take what scares you hold it deep inside

And if you ask me why I'm with you

And why I'll never leave

My love will show you everything (x4)

*Sobs* It's so cute & romantic. I'm addicted to this song. Argh! XD

Uhm. So yeah. I think this ends here. *Sigh*

When will I find the perfect someone who can watch the sunset with me?