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I wrote this awhile ago at around 12:30 AM. I couldn't sleep. Insomniac. XD

*I'm using codenames.

Soooo... it's sembreak.

HELP! How can you tell somebody that his actions are disturbing even though they're just jokes? Jeez. I just felt so uneasy.

I feel so hidden. It's as if I'm too conservative! I see myself as the nerdy freakazoid who dreams to be a rich mad scientist, at the same time, be a saint or a patroness of whatever. What dreams!!! You know... when a guy's getting intimate and all... I feel so uncomfortable that I suddenly separate myself from him and avoid contact. That's why, I guess, I haven't had any suitors, MU's or even know a single person who has a crush on me. I tend to separate myself from the "possibilities". I worry a lot. Moreover, I think a lot. I just feel so guilty bit being open to my parents. That's why, I avoid any romantic situations. Maaga pa lang, I try to kill the budding growth. It just sucks though because I don't experience the "kilig factor" that my other female friends experience.

I tend to be soooo secretive. Hell. I just don't trust anybody easily. Not even the ones who are dear to me.

BOTTOMLINE: I MISS TWILIGHT (Ehem, codename...doii)! Though, we don't talk too much in school, I miss him. He's not my ideal man, but there's something in him that make my heart beat so fast! Do I love him? Waaaah... XD

I dreamt about Twi (Twilight)! He was with his friend in this gamezone whatsoever. I was entering that place with a billiard stick and my school bag in hand (yes, my dreams are weird) when I suddenly saw them. I pretended to not notice them and instead said hello to my friend. Then, I rushed to get out. Getting to the railings of the mall (it seemed like Glorietta), they chased me. So, I greeted them. So we talked. It was just a nice dream. *Sigh* Oh, and such a long dream too. Before this, it started as a family reunion, that turned into a ghost-hunting fest, then suddenly became an ala-soap opera Crazy for You where I was the Janice and I got linked with a cute guy and then turned into a de ja vu of the fieldtrip where we got to do absolutely nothing at Tagaytay Highlands until evening fall... which suddenly became a party for my friends aaaand afterwhich, the incident with Twi then my computer session... then waking up with the TV switched on with my brother watching.

I'm quite surprised I remember the details of the dream. What happens to most people is that they only remember a fragment of it.

Here are some quotes I made up for Twi:

Under the palm tree

We sit together

Setting our feelings free

Waiting for forever

***
Isn't it wonderful

How I can make

Simple words beautiful

For your sole sake

***

Living in dreams

Believing falsely

Yet it seems

Just like a medley

Forgive me, I'm not poetic. I'm just amazed how I can suddenly make these in just a short span of time for Twi when I want to write a poem, it takes me an eternity to make a stanza.

Oh! I'm sorry if I acted like a teeny bopper here in this. Hahaha. La lang. ;-p