Confused

Have you ever felt that when a certain someone's away from you, you miss him? But when he's there, you suddenly act weirdly... That it seems you don't want to see him or be with him? Hell, it's so weird! I'm feeling that way right now. He doesn't deserve my feelings. He doesn't!

I don't know why I fell for him in the first place. Ugh... it's so weird... I wish all would just pop like a bubble and be gone in a blink of an eye! I don't know... I want to tell someone how I really feel about that guy. A really, really trustworthy friend. But, it seems that I can't trust someone especially with my deepest, darkest secret... except God.

No one would understand. Even I can't understand how I feel. It's really, really irritating.

Why wouldn't just my world be simpler? Do I think too much?

This is absolutely emotional and sentimental. Say whatever you want, hell, I don't give a damn. As if you don't get these feelings. You're the ones who should be... nevermind.

At school, I only want to be a friend. I always want to impress him. WEIRD. Eeeek. It's fuun when I talk to him. But, he's either always too secluded with the material world. Huhuhu. :(

Just give me that smile & I'm ready to die.
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Kidding.

NOTE: Don't make this post such a big deal. You'd understand if you're in my place. Just want to share a thought or two.